Hi Maxwell. I hope your drive is going well. After cramming these last couple of days with work and plans and honestly any other distraction I could think of, I am finally sitting down and I have no choice but to face the reality that we are no longer roommates. And postponing the goodbye was my way of postponing that realization because I am terrified to do life without you. You are one of my best friends. You have changed my life and I really cannot fathom who I’d be without you. I admittedly cried when you texted me that old photo. It is so emotional to think about this past year, everything we’ve been through and accomplished. It is even more emotional to think about how this chapter of our lives is over in so many ways. And it makes me sad but at the center of that sadness is gratitude because how lucky am I to have someone who I am going to miss so much. Of course it had to end. The absence of permanence is what made every car ride and Taco Bell run and late night conversation significant. I think about how often we talked about this moment, about everything waiting for you in Denver, the potential, the hope, the dreams. And now it’s finally here. It’s not a dream. It’s a reality. You made it happen. I am so proud of you and inspired by you. And I can only imagine how you feel right now, driving towards so much uncertainty. So I just want to say this.

It won’t be everything you want it to be. It will be everything you never knew you wanted. And if it is comparable to me moving in with you, it will be everything you never knew you needed. Your apartment was the first time I ever decorated my bedroom. I didn’t believe in decorating because no place ever felt like home. But when I moved in with you, I decorated right away because I was hopeful. Perhaps I manifested it, but I was right. Living with you was home. Of course it was. After all, home is not where you are from. It is where you are wanted. I don’t know what I’m doing with my life Maxwell. But wherever I end up, know you can call it home. Drive safe my friend. I love you and I miss you already.